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1st November already past.
Now I'm 27 already. It's just a figure but for me who are like to look at different view would evaluate how far I go and what things I already achieve along these 27 years being as a hamba Allah.
So many things happened in this 2010. The happiness, the sadness, unexpected things, expected things..but I would never regret for everythings happened to me. Because I know..everything is happened for a reason.
Allah has His own way for us. Allah tak beri apa yang kita harapkan tetapi Allah beri apa yang kita perlukan.For everything you have missed, you have gained something else. These two quotes are in my planner and I always bear in my mind.


I hadn't celebrate yet my birthday. It's ok. Thoughtfullness is enough for me. 12 pm..dah tidur but deep in my heart I'm waiting someone special to send me the wishes tru sms. I know he will never do in FB. I bet u! Tapi sms yang dinanti tak kunjung tiba. Dan aku pun mula berhiba-hiba. Rupa-rupanya pukul 1 lebih baru dia hantar. Tahulah aku dia baru nak tidur time tu. Last Saturday masa ambil Cik Swiffy memang pergi dengan dia. But we won't talk to much about us. Banyak pasal kerja-kerja-kerja. AKu pun tak nak spoil keadaan dengan tanya soalan yang menyentap. Itupun telefon asyik bunyi, SMS sana, SMS sini. Mujur aku jenis tak kisah, jenis dah biasa. AKu rasa kalau perempuan lain dah hangin sebab bila keluar pun still busy dengan kerja. Tapi tulah..aku masih tak faham kenapa dia buat macam ni pada aku..sedangkan aku rasa aku dah cukup bertolak ansur dengan dia. Memahami dan menerima seadanya..Entahlah, mungkin tak cukup apa yang aku buat ni. At some part I would understand his situation as he did mention and explain to me. But aku still rasa tak puas hati because things like he hidden something from me. Never mind. Nantilah the next meeting I'll make it clear. Kalau aku minta pendapat orang pun..orang akan cakap..aku je yang tahu dia macam mana..jadi sebenarnya aku sendiri yang kena buat keputusan. Sooner or later I gotta choose. Some people said..biar lelaki yang sayang kat kita sungguh-sungguh sebab kita perempuan..sayang tu akan datang kemudian walaupun at the first place kita tak boleh nak create perasaan tu secara natural. 


Entahlah..aku try to overcome this problem dengan sibukkan diri. Tapi bila balik rumah hancusss. Terpaksa buat rumah dalam opis supaya tak fikir. Haha. Tak tahulah wiken nanti macam mana. Susah weh bila main dengan hati dan perasaan ni. Mujurlah ada sedikit kesabaran dan rasional dalam diri. Kalau tak memang teruk. 
Oklah pen off. Jarang aku cerita pasal hati. But this time I have to sebab ada masanya aku jadi sebak bila fikirkan hal-hal yang ke depan nanti.