Having my nescafe classic while on the phone with my mak su.
Rasa susah sangat nak call masa weekday. Most likely because of magrib prayer time masuk awal.
Plus maksu and kanak-kanak itu baru sampai rumah lepas balik dari sekolah.
Now, it has been 4 months my late opah leaving us. 4 months. Every day and every week I miss her lots and lots. Kadang-kadang rasa tak percaya yang opah tu dah tak ada. Rasa dia masih ada lagi. It just me yang jarang call her through the phone sebab tu rasa rindu. But the fact is, she wasn't with us anymore. Maksu told me that both of my sister mimpikan opah. Memang la, semua orang rindu dia dan rasa dia ada lagi. Every month balik kampung opah ada. Kadang-kadang masa lunch atau lepas balik kerja call opah. Tapi sekarang tak ada dah. I miss to do all those thing yang buat dengan dia. Serious I miss to hear her voice. Ok, tear drops. Ada sampai satu tahap, how could Allah do this to me. Took my opah while I was away from her. But I know, semua tu dah takdir. Mengucaplah aku mintak ampun. Dan sekarang perkara itu lah yang on the top paling aku menyesal dalam hidup ni bila mana aku tak sempat dengan waktu-waktu terakhir bersama dia. Bila mana aku tak sempat tunaikan impian dia tengok aku kahwin. Bila mana aku tak sempat nak share perkara-perkara manis dalam hidup ni dengan dia, Deep inside in my heart, I know Allah will give me the best ever thing. But it just a matter of time. Sebab itu Dia uji aku dengan macam-macam hal. Banyak benda-benda peribadi yang aku simpan. Now, it's hardly to see me cry in front of my family. Kawan lagilah. Aku banyak pendam rasa lepas opah pergi. All the sadness I just keep it inside my heart and sharing with Allah.
Dear opah, moga bahagia di Jannah.
Rasa susah sangat nak call masa weekday. Most likely because of magrib prayer time masuk awal.
Plus maksu and kanak-kanak itu baru sampai rumah lepas balik dari sekolah.
Now, it has been 4 months my late opah leaving us. 4 months. Every day and every week I miss her lots and lots. Kadang-kadang rasa tak percaya yang opah tu dah tak ada. Rasa dia masih ada lagi. It just me yang jarang call her through the phone sebab tu rasa rindu. But the fact is, she wasn't with us anymore. Maksu told me that both of my sister mimpikan opah. Memang la, semua orang rindu dia dan rasa dia ada lagi. Every month balik kampung opah ada. Kadang-kadang masa lunch atau lepas balik kerja call opah. Tapi sekarang tak ada dah. I miss to do all those thing yang buat dengan dia. Serious I miss to hear her voice. Ok, tear drops. Ada sampai satu tahap, how could Allah do this to me. Took my opah while I was away from her. But I know, semua tu dah takdir. Mengucaplah aku mintak ampun. Dan sekarang perkara itu lah yang on the top paling aku menyesal dalam hidup ni bila mana aku tak sempat dengan waktu-waktu terakhir bersama dia. Bila mana aku tak sempat tunaikan impian dia tengok aku kahwin. Bila mana aku tak sempat nak share perkara-perkara manis dalam hidup ni dengan dia, Deep inside in my heart, I know Allah will give me the best ever thing. But it just a matter of time. Sebab itu Dia uji aku dengan macam-macam hal. Banyak benda-benda peribadi yang aku simpan. Now, it's hardly to see me cry in front of my family. Kawan lagilah. Aku banyak pendam rasa lepas opah pergi. All the sadness I just keep it inside my heart and sharing with Allah.
Dear opah, moga bahagia di Jannah.
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