it just a matter of time

i would claimed myself addicted to caffeine.
isn't really bad for you?
anyway it's a must for me to take a cup of coffee before i go to the lab.
and at 10 am or 3 pm i will take a cup of coffee again.
it seems that my brain isn't fully functional without caffein.
i'm not sure when a must having coffee become my life style.
but about 2 years ago i regularly took coffee every morning.
right now i miss my nescafe mocha which of course i couldn't find here.
one can of nescafe mocha ia a must having when i drive to balik kampung after subuh.
just one tin with a bottle of mineral water i can drive safely and reach at home within 3 hrs non stop and no sleepy eye. Whoa!

sometimes i wondering why people concern in a matter of time when comes into relationship.
why people like to say ain't moving to fast?
it just a matter of time peeps.
for me, when u think he/she is the right one for u don't miss it. just go for it and do not put yourself in denial.
i might be not the right person to talk about this thing perfectly as my relationship is also in the middle of no where.
but somehow i think time is just an escapism. u are ready or not it will come in no matter what condition u are.
if u said u are not ready because of money, works or other stuff, yup it might be right.
but don't all those stuff that we will be going through for the rest of our life? the answer is yours.
my answer? this thing isn't work from one side only. that's it.
hmmmm...if only i can download his mind.

p/s: thanks to my dear friends who are concern what i'm facing right now. close friends may know me as a cheerful girl, big girl don't cry but it's different now. i always hiding inside my hear and holding in my head and now i can't stand anymore . hence this blog has become a part of sesi meroyan ku.
i'm trying to positive my mind and take it easy and slowly...and like i said it just a matter of time for me to adapt in this situation..melalui waktu-waktu sukar begini. may be it just a beginning for us before we move to another step which is more challenging. just praise the best for me ya peeps! love u all!